Live in the moment, sometimes

     I stress about things I can't control.  Then, I get mad at myself for wasting my energy on it.  It usually takes a gentle reminder from Dave for me to realize what I am doing.  A few weeks ago, I was frustrated because I could not find a job in St George.  I thought it would be easy--I have a lot of experience, confidence, great referrences.  But, I only got called 3 times for an interview and out of thoses only one would work with my school schedule..........and I didn't get that job.  I was discouraged.  Dave chuckled at me and reminded me that for one month of putting in applications getting one interview was pretty good.  Okay......point taken.  Stop obsessively stressing about it. 

      Today, I have a job in St George.  And, guess how I got it?  By pure chance.  Dave had been referrred to a specialist to have a sleep study done, and taht office called me to set up his appointment.  During the course of our conversation, I mentioned that we would be moving down there soon and of hand asked "you guys aren't hiring a Medical Assistant, are you?" not even expecting to get a serious answer.  The scheduler said "well.......actually we might be.  Let me give your info to our manager."  A few days later she called me and we discussed a position that would accomodate time for school.  I faxed in my resume, got called in for an interview and was offered the job as I left.  Just like that......I had a job.  This is where Dave does his "I told you so" dance (yes,  he actually has one). 

     So, I take this lesson as a reminder to live in the moment, not to stress about what I can't control and focus on the things I can change ( the AA prayer is very helpful to a stress-addict).  Some stress is good--don't get me wrong.  It can be very motivating.  But, worrying about what will happen is not good.  Instaed I need to put my energy into things that I can change........I can study harder, I can apply for more jobs, send my resume to every clinic in St G (which was going to be my next step).

     Now, my stress is about trying to find a place to rent.  Our landlord wants a 30 day notice, which I gave on August 1st.  But, if you want to look for a place to rent (apperently!) you need to be able to move in whithin 2 weeks.  So, we can either pay double rent for 2 weeks or cross our fingers and hope that we can find something  closer to the end of the month.  The good thing is that I have a couple of good property management places to work with and (right now ) they have plenty of listings.  So, I will stop checking their websites and worrying about the move for a few weeks.  Or, at least I will try.  Things have a way of working out.