The Ridge

     My 6+ years at Cedar Ridge Family Medicine were great.  They were flexible with my schedule which allowed me to go back to school.  Our office manager is like my "dad away from dad".  The girls that I worked with are some of my best friends and cheerleaders.  I got 4 Nursing school rejection letters in the walls of that clinic, and they all gave me the strength to apply just one more time before I gave up.  And, they were all there when I got my letter from MCC.  The docs pushed me, helped me study, answered all of my (numerous, complicated) medical questions.  I could not have asked for a better job. 

     These are the reasons why it is so hard to leave.  But, life is pulling me in a new direction and I have to move on.  I hope that my new job will be as rewarding.  I know that I am moving on to the next phase of my life.  I am changing homes and jobs.......it will be better for us in the long term.  I will not think about how hot the summers in St George are, but instead, focus on how warm the rest of the year will be (shorts in December!).  I will focus on the positive, look towards the future....but not forget those that helped me get here. 

I love you, CRFM! 

I feel better now

   I am sure you were all a little worried about/for me.  We found a place,  tuition is figured out (thanks, pop) and things are looking better--even me.  I did a little at-home-spa night with a home made, do it yourself (cheap!) hot oil treatment for my hair and a baking soda facial scrub.  It was great to "spoil" myself a little and my hair feels super soft.  Thanks to this little find petitelephant, one of the best blogs ever! It has lots of at home beauty tricks and fun things that I highly recommend.

    Now we just need to get settled in to our new place ( Sep 1st can't come soon enough!) and things will get back to normal, minus commute time--which means they will be even better!

See, I knew God had a plan for us :)

Not doing so great at "living in the moment"

.......But I do have faith that it will work out, somehow.  This week has not been good in the stress category.  Let's just say that while I love MCC's nursing program, the Financial Aide department really bites.  And, we are still looking for a place to live in St Geezy.  I am cleaning and packing to keep my mind busy. 

     I say a little prayer everynight, I know that there is a plan for us. 

Live in the moment, sometimes

     I stress about things I can't control.  Then, I get mad at myself for wasting my energy on it.  It usually takes a gentle reminder from Dave for me to realize what I am doing.  A few weeks ago, I was frustrated because I could not find a job in St George.  I thought it would be easy--I have a lot of experience, confidence, great referrences.  But, I only got called 3 times for an interview and out of thoses only one would work with my school schedule..........and I didn't get that job.  I was discouraged.  Dave chuckled at me and reminded me that for one month of putting in applications getting one interview was pretty good.  Okay......point taken.  Stop obsessively stressing about it. 

      Today, I have a job in St George.  And, guess how I got it?  By pure chance.  Dave had been referrred to a specialist to have a sleep study done, and taht office called me to set up his appointment.  During the course of our conversation, I mentioned that we would be moving down there soon and of hand asked "you guys aren't hiring a Medical Assistant, are you?" not even expecting to get a serious answer.  The scheduler said "well.......actually we might be.  Let me give your info to our manager."  A few days later she called me and we discussed a position that would accomodate time for school.  I faxed in my resume, got called in for an interview and was offered the job as I left.  Just like that......I had a job.  This is where Dave does his "I told you so" dance (yes,  he actually has one). 

     So, I take this lesson as a reminder to live in the moment, not to stress about what I can't control and focus on the things I can change ( the AA prayer is very helpful to a stress-addict).  Some stress is good--don't get me wrong.  It can be very motivating.  But, worrying about what will happen is not good.  Instaed I need to put my energy into things that I can change........I can study harder, I can apply for more jobs, send my resume to every clinic in St G (which was going to be my next step).

     Now, my stress is about trying to find a place to rent.  Our landlord wants a 30 day notice, which I gave on August 1st.  But, if you want to look for a place to rent (apperently!) you need to be able to move in whithin 2 weeks.  So, we can either pay double rent for 2 weeks or cross our fingers and hope that we can find something  closer to the end of the month.  The good thing is that I have a couple of good property management places to work with and (right now ) they have plenty of listings.  So, I will stop checking their websites and worrying about the move for a few weeks.  Or, at least I will try.  Things have a way of working out.