I usually love this time of year, but as my 34th birthday approaches, I find myself in a funk. I am tired of trying to look at the bright side. This is usually something that is like second nature to me. I feel a little disoriented. I know things will get better. I have faith that I will not be given anything I can't handle. I just feel like being depressed. I don't know how else I can say it.
I hope that I can get out of this before too long so that I can enjoy the Holidays. And, as I type that, I know part of my funk is due to the holidays. I am frustrated about how commercial Christmas has gotten and this battles with the guilt of wanting to give the kids a great Christmas. I want the holiday to be about family and sharing time together and not about the price tag, but I feel pressure to make it more than that.
Any suggestions?
2 comments:
we just take it one day at a time and hope for the best. that is all that can be done. i too struggle with this funk and am trying very hard to get out of it. i have taken to doing home made gifts to give to family. i of course thought it was a great idea and if i can get them all finished have no doubt the family will love what i am doing. if only i get them done. keep pushing through and dont give up. take some time for yourself when needed and try to center yourself. i know that you have a great husband and kids behind you and you always have your family and friends behind you as well. you will get through this.
On the shady side of the street, a funk is breeding ground for introspection, prioritizing personal vaules, and usually results in something better than before. Enjoy the funk for the (painful) growth!
And (Ive heard this helps but havent actually tried it) look for a family project: something that will really drive home to the kids how fortunate they are to have -everything they have-. And of course, they are fortunate to have YOU! Did that make sense? Owell.
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